Too Much

I was born into a life of conformity and confinement where chaos ruled my life.  It was a comfortable numbing existence of denial and death that was my blanket.  Smothered and secure I stayed until I could no longer behave.

Being what everyone wants is unattainable, unattractive and I am unwilling to be that person any longer.  I am unwilling to sacrifice my soul for the acceptance of the slaughtering masses who stride to keep me small.  

My light is too bright for many and a beacon that inspires.  I am inspired by the greatness of those who stood before me carrying the torch of triumph.  I longer to linger in their light.  I stood in the shadows of my demise and took in the magic of their teachings.  I learned that they were too much too.  I felt at peace with the promise and potential as I stayed small.  I grew with grace as I healed my heart from the tragedy of my life.  A trashcan full of dreams and a destiny for greatness.

I grew tired of the stench of the shit I had been fed.  I fell ill from the abuse I had absorbed.  I reached my hands to the sky and begged the great grace to bring me healing.  Healed people heal people and I was graced with gems and jewels whose names are those whose friendship I am blessed to hold in my heart of hearts — you know who you are!

To those who are too much to handle, too badass to be accepted, too weird to be taken seriously and too wild to be tamed — I salute you.  I stand beside you, behind you and before you.  

I am Nancy Nance and I am Exponential Joy!